Sometimes, I like to trivialize the things that I find important as a defensive maneuver. I’ll phrase things a certain way to make it seem as though it’s not as important in case there’s failure in it, then it doesn’t seem as much of a big deal to an onlooker. Internally, I’ll be quite upset though.
On the same train of thought, I’ll overcompensate feeling angry/upset with a lot of smiley faces when texting.
Somehow, I am always left in disappointment.
It’s been a week full of change.
I feel liberated of certain things, but there’s always that disconnect I feel with myself, what I’m doing and the people around me.
It’s always “I will”, but never “I did”. These are things to change still.